And a very happy New Year
It was c's idea to stay home for New Years and I wasn't going to object. I figured we would end up with a bunch of people at the house like we always do. Our place is like the after hours bar, it's where everyone ends their night. They know c will be up and there will be good food made. I bought c this margarita kit for Christmas from the El Paso Chili Co. so we salted up some glasses, drop in a few olives and shook up the tequila. We sat on the couch and watched movies and drank our margaritas. I had cooked a ham and some mashed potatoes for dinner so we feasted in between drinks. As it got closer to midnight I was surprised that no one had showed up or even really called. I can't say I was disapointed because I was enjoying the quiet night. As the new year approached c and I sat in front of the Christmas tree, all lit up, and watched the ball drop. We kissed to ring in the new year and it was like something from one of those cheezy romantic comedies. Then we, and I'll spare the details, christened "our" apartment. Pretty much all of it. It is the best New Year's I think I have ever had. It amazes me how I can fall in love with c over and over again because of the little things he does. I don't even know if he realizes how much I appreciate that he gave his New Years all to me and I did't have to share him.
Thursday, January 02, 2003
This weeks This or That
1. Stay in or go out on New Year's Eve? Me, My Honey & a pitcher of Margarita's. What more do you need?
2. If you stay home, do you stay up to ring in the new year, or fall asleep earlier?Gotta watch Dick Clark's Neew Years Rockin Eve and watch the ball drop.
3. If you go out, do you prefer to attend a party at someone's home, or go to a bar/nightclub/restaurant?House parties are always better
4. Make resolutions, or do you not bother?I don't bother because I know I will break them anyway
5. Ever been to Times Square (New York City) on New Year's Eve, or just watched the ball drop on TV?Watch the ball drop on TV. I like the warmth and lack of chaos in my own home
6. Toast the New Year with champagne or a soft drink?Gott have Andres $2.99 Champagne for the toast
7. Do you have a special New Year's dinner or not? This year it was baked ham and mashed potato's
8. Do you already have your 2003 calendar, or do you wait to buy one until the stores mark them down?I buy them on sale around june (he he)
9. Take down Christmas decorations: before or after New Year's?Come on now, what beats making love by the light of the christmas tree as the clock hits midnight
10. Funny hats and noisemakers, or a quieter celebration? I've been banging pots and pans on the front porch for as long as I can remember
1. Stay in or go out on New Year's Eve? Me, My Honey & a pitcher of Margarita's. What more do you need?
2. If you stay home, do you stay up to ring in the new year, or fall asleep earlier?Gotta watch Dick Clark's Neew Years Rockin Eve and watch the ball drop.
3. If you go out, do you prefer to attend a party at someone's home, or go to a bar/nightclub/restaurant?House parties are always better
4. Make resolutions, or do you not bother?I don't bother because I know I will break them anyway
5. Ever been to Times Square (New York City) on New Year's Eve, or just watched the ball drop on TV?Watch the ball drop on TV. I like the warmth and lack of chaos in my own home
6. Toast the New Year with champagne or a soft drink?Gott have Andres $2.99 Champagne for the toast
7. Do you have a special New Year's dinner or not? This year it was baked ham and mashed potato's
8. Do you already have your 2003 calendar, or do you wait to buy one until the stores mark them down?I buy them on sale around june (he he)
9. Take down Christmas decorations: before or after New Year's?Come on now, what beats making love by the light of the christmas tree as the clock hits midnight
10. Funny hats and noisemakers, or a quieter celebration? I've been banging pots and pans on the front porch for as long as I can remember
Monday, December 30, 2002
Success & Longing
We picked up the washing machine and the rest of my furniture on Saturday. Our apartment is now complete and actually looks like a home. I can finally invite people over and entertain without being embarrassed. It's funny how in such a short time c and I have become like an old married couple. We have our routines in the morning and before bed and you know the romance is gone when your partner has no problem walking in to the bathroom to brush his teeth or wash his hands while I am indisposed. I don't even bother locking the door anymore. It actually feels nice to be so comfortable with someone. Scary too.
When I think about the future, it's no longer mine, it's ours. I can't imagine my life without c. I would be devastated if anything ever happened to him or us. I find my self more frequently thinking about our future and having kids. I worry a lot because c says he wants kids and he is wonderful with my nephew an cousins but I am afraid c will never be ready for that responsibility. He enjoys the "single" life, being carefree and livening day to day, not having to plan and schedule. He living want to trade in his freedom yet. c. can't quite see the big picture. He thinks we have all the time in the world and I fear that by the time he realizes that he wants kids and is ready it will be to late. I know I still have time but at my age, every year I wait the risk is greater. With my family medical history the risk doubles.
So many people in my family have had babies this year which I think has added fuel to the fire. I have always wanted kids though. For as long as I can remember I have wanted 7 children. 4 boys and 3 girls. I don't know why 7 but it always sounded great. Well, now I pray for 1. I hate to be cliche but my biological clock is ticking so loud It's drowning everything else out. I don't want to pressure c. I want this to be a decision we both make because we are ready for it and want it. It's just hard because I am mentally prepared for a family and have been for some time. I am ready for it and want it. c isn't there yet. He's on the right path but he traveling awfully slow. It sucks that men and women travel at different speeds. I seems like your never at the same place at the same time. Someone is always ready first.
When c and I first started dating he was totally in to the relationship thing and wanted an exclusive relationship very quickly. We were only dating for 3 months when he told me he loved me. It freaked me out because I wasn't ready for that type of serious relationship. I actually cried when he said it because I couldn't say it back. I told him that I wasn't ready and that I couldn't say it yet. The words mean to much. I wasn't until we were together about a year that I told him I loved him. Now that we are in a committed relationship (3½ years) he is still in that exclusive dating mode. I know that he is committed to me and our relationship but he still needs clings to that bachelor mentality a little because he doesn't understand that being in a committed relationship doesn't mean that you have to give up your freedom. It just means you are sharing your life with someone. Men really are from Mars!
We picked up the washing machine and the rest of my furniture on Saturday. Our apartment is now complete and actually looks like a home. I can finally invite people over and entertain without being embarrassed. It's funny how in such a short time c and I have become like an old married couple. We have our routines in the morning and before bed and you know the romance is gone when your partner has no problem walking in to the bathroom to brush his teeth or wash his hands while I am indisposed. I don't even bother locking the door anymore. It actually feels nice to be so comfortable with someone. Scary too.
When I think about the future, it's no longer mine, it's ours. I can't imagine my life without c. I would be devastated if anything ever happened to him or us. I find my self more frequently thinking about our future and having kids. I worry a lot because c says he wants kids and he is wonderful with my nephew an cousins but I am afraid c will never be ready for that responsibility. He enjoys the "single" life, being carefree and livening day to day, not having to plan and schedule. He living want to trade in his freedom yet. c. can't quite see the big picture. He thinks we have all the time in the world and I fear that by the time he realizes that he wants kids and is ready it will be to late. I know I still have time but at my age, every year I wait the risk is greater. With my family medical history the risk doubles.
So many people in my family have had babies this year which I think has added fuel to the fire. I have always wanted kids though. For as long as I can remember I have wanted 7 children. 4 boys and 3 girls. I don't know why 7 but it always sounded great. Well, now I pray for 1. I hate to be cliche but my biological clock is ticking so loud It's drowning everything else out. I don't want to pressure c. I want this to be a decision we both make because we are ready for it and want it. It's just hard because I am mentally prepared for a family and have been for some time. I am ready for it and want it. c isn't there yet. He's on the right path but he traveling awfully slow. It sucks that men and women travel at different speeds. I seems like your never at the same place at the same time. Someone is always ready first.
When c and I first started dating he was totally in to the relationship thing and wanted an exclusive relationship very quickly. We were only dating for 3 months when he told me he loved me. It freaked me out because I wasn't ready for that type of serious relationship. I actually cried when he said it because I couldn't say it back. I told him that I wasn't ready and that I couldn't say it yet. The words mean to much. I wasn't until we were together about a year that I told him I loved him. Now that we are in a committed relationship (3½ years) he is still in that exclusive dating mode. I know that he is committed to me and our relationship but he still needs clings to that bachelor mentality a little because he doesn't understand that being in a committed relationship doesn't mean that you have to give up your freedom. It just means you are sharing your life with someone. Men really are from Mars!
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