Well I got the job I applied for. I am kind of caught between being excited about the new challenges and sad to leave this department which I was responsible (with m.s. of course) for creating and spent 4 years pouring blood, sweat, and tears into. I was also really nervous about what the group dynamic would be like in the new job. You know it's always awkward in the beginning when you enter a new work environment, but how you are received makes all the difference.
Working with m.s. has always been easy. We didn't or don't for that matter always agree but that's OK and we know how to work around that. Will it be that easy with my new colleagues?
I had the opportunity to spend two days with my new colleagues at a workshop and was so pleased at the end of it because every single person in the new department was so kid and inviting and made me feel welcome even though I have not started yet. We all joked and laughed and it took a little weight off my shoulders.
Although my excitement for the new job is building every day I still have some guilt. I can't help it. It's in my nature. I am doing everything in my power to just let go. I know I have to but when you invest so much in a project it is hard to just hand it over to someone else. Right now I am just focusing on trying to make a smooth transition, both for myself and the colleagues I am leaving behind.
It sucks when you know you are making the right decision for yourself but it makes other peoples lives a little more complicated.
